a thousand miles away -

12:11 PM

today's paper was okae . was science chem bio mcqs . quite okae lar .

saw tf's personal message . i feel sucky . can i juz neva be in loved . haish . this juz suck . once again a hurt a guy i've loved so much before . sucky . wadeva~ . hate myself .

i feel damn bloody guilty can . haish . wadeva ~ .

and he's not gonna tok mii anymore . haish . there goes a fren again . why why why . haish . i think i'm far more worst than erjie lar . it's juz that i don need ppl to worry for mii . and ppl don see wad i feel deep down inside . except for a fw of my gd frens . or can i say one . oh well . at least i still have my dearest friend . but i don mean anything

i really don mean to hurt u yar . haish . doulbt u'll care any more . sad ~~

few more days to my birthday but i cant be bothered . dosent seems much excited bout it at all . maybe coz i juz totally suck . wadeva . anyway . i wount go kill myself or wadeva shit lar . i'll juz act happy as if nth had happened so no one will worry for mii . yea . wad a gd plan .

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

__i have the courage to love you no more__